01.10.06

I still really am not sure how to go about this correctly. I don't have a plan...I don't have what you might call... desire... at any real level...

apparently depression runs in the family... first i've heard of it...
apparently i've always been "emotional"...
wonderful...

in a world seemingly dominated by depressed, confused, lackluster, mysterious, wannabe writers... i'm just another brick in the wall...

i suppose at this point i should say i see myself in what i choose to read... that darkness breeds
darkness... or something...

if i change the frame of reference... you see...

choose to live positively... choose to change what you can and accept what you can't...
choose a life lived... with choices... even if they're wrong, the choice was still made, and that in
and of itself is what's important...

so to start over...just fuckin' fire away man... not even thinking about it already produced results...
it's contemplation that really causes problems for me...
plans within plans turns into crap...
rather...
damn... i just lost it... i had it... and i lost it...

well...
there's always next time...