tired...
my eyes droop, oh... how they droop.
wondered on comedy
plurality
incomprehension
duplicity
an average man
such an admission
a man
understanding hits hard
being something beyond
self
creating something for a community
even this
qualifies
as a man i take this
leave it
hope it
sees some light of day
never again
i will always wail
thoughts of structure bring me down
i long for more than mysterious
known
laid out
content in this
i strive to be.
10.29.2005
10.14.2005
old friendly
i've tried several different things...
recreate past events
situations
I remember a change
so sudden then
lasting
wilted in some warm wind
i shake me head
sitting here with thoughts
rubbing keys feeling such surface
contemplate outside
affects
her face escapes me
short meetings
converstations seeming
awkward gestures
I shake my head
with knowledge of this
things change
knowing it's meant
changes intent
something's been lost since then
something's been lost since then
what used to come freely
must be coaxed
recreate past events
situations
I remember a change
so sudden then
lasting
wilted in some warm wind
i shake me head
sitting here with thoughts
rubbing keys feeling such surface
contemplate outside
affects
her face escapes me
short meetings
converstations seeming
awkward gestures
I shake my head
with knowledge of this
things change
knowing it's meant
changes intent
something's been lost since then
something's been lost since then
what used to come freely
must be coaxed
9.16.2005
killed who? with the what now?
"things fall apart, the center cannot hold..."
every once in awhile, you get that glimmer of passion in your soul.
you feel strongly about something...
i feel strongly about something, something missing for so long.
I wonder what depth lies below me?
what heights i once reached?
where did it go; what has slowly pulled this from me?
what causes me to think, ponder, and question things i once dismissed as nothing?
how can a life bank so far? slowly pulling down.
what brings this to the fore? what force...
i look back on this and shake my head, this prophecy fulfilled in every way.
tapping these keys places a man's life in your hands.
you think you know me through these lines, these paltry lines.
fuck you.
every once in awhile, you get that glimmer of passion in your soul.
you feel strongly about something...
i feel strongly about something, something missing for so long.
I wonder what depth lies below me?
what heights i once reached?
where did it go; what has slowly pulled this from me?
what causes me to think, ponder, and question things i once dismissed as nothing?
how can a life bank so far? slowly pulling down.
what brings this to the fore? what force...
i look back on this and shake my head, this prophecy fulfilled in every way.
tapping these keys places a man's life in your hands.
you think you know me through these lines, these paltry lines.
fuck you.
8.19.2005
wondering...
what fucking
things placed about
strewn in some
fashion
orderly displaced
agravation
quit looking around
shaking your head
wondering on
things transmissions
from here
to there
look place this somewhere
save it
savour it
don't give it up
come back again and look upon
creation
laugh it's
nothing
like no other
like nothing left
and still life
does not forget
nothing done
ventured
risked
no reward
place this inside
remember love
only connect.
things placed about
strewn in some
fashion
orderly displaced
agravation
quit looking around
shaking your head
wondering on
things transmissions
from here
to there
look place this somewhere
save it
savour it
don't give it up
come back again and look upon
creation
laugh it's
nothing
like no other
like nothing left
and still life
does not forget
nothing done
ventured
risked
no reward
place this inside
remember love
only connect.
7.31.2005
7.19.2005
more of the same...
Hey now...
Relocation...
altercation...
ministration...
whatever floats...
I'll keep this short and sweet... one of the saddest things in life is lacking the energy and motivation to do the things you want to do; to do the things that bring you pleasure, fulfillment, happiness, and freedom of thought...
sad indeed...
until next time...
-Rob
Relocation...
altercation...
ministration...
whatever floats...
I'll keep this short and sweet... one of the saddest things in life is lacking the energy and motivation to do the things you want to do; to do the things that bring you pleasure, fulfillment, happiness, and freedom of thought...
sad indeed...
until next time...
-Rob
5.16.2005
Time for more of the same...
more crap from every angle, the everyday question...
mystery, underground, unrelenting desire, facist neo-pig fuck sackery...
ah, the wonderful dynamic world of the english language, it is what you want it to be... as long as one other person is with you on it.
same gutteral wrenching painful extraction of "feelings" plagues us all. the supposed release, the unanticipated deluge from within...
bullshit...
-Rob
more crap from every angle, the everyday question...
mystery, underground, unrelenting desire, facist neo-pig fuck sackery...
ah, the wonderful dynamic world of the english language, it is what you want it to be... as long as one other person is with you on it.
same gutteral wrenching painful extraction of "feelings" plagues us all. the supposed release, the unanticipated deluge from within...
bullshit...
-Rob
5.03.2005
move...?
indeed...
intermittent has become even more so with geographical and occupational changes...
fun times indeed...
oh, the levels.
intermittent has become even more so with geographical and occupational changes...
fun times indeed...
oh, the levels.
4.13.2005
3 for the road....
last call
called from
someplace warm
comfortable life lived
respected for
things undefined
left uncertain failings
behind curtains
trotted out for
all see
dance for me
put on a show
life's certain capabilities
paraded about
no secrets
those respected arouse
suspicion in loved
one's own feelings
pushed to ground
not afraid to smile
live like that.
>>>>
perhaps
he considers depth of reason
inescapable treason
to those in need
transpired fixed
rewind
unoccupied shell wanders
staring at what firings
images encapsulated
among strong feelings
of doubt
belonging to
something hold onto
people humanity
look for a decision
made not thought about
ring true beyond reason
to embrace or
not let near perfect
symbols of imperfection
inarticulate ink
hasn't lived up to it
motivated desire
passion presently absent
a long nights foray
brings an end
considering all that has happened
as time comes later and later
until disrupted
disjunction among synapses
reading friends poetry.
>>>>
he looks to those
most important
defined friend
as family
there for all
anytime
respected above
how to explain beyond
humanistic love
understand this
he repeats
connection
though words traded
less often
time passes
space expands
he repeats
ask and
I will always be there when you need me.
-Rob
"fear is the mind killer"
last call
called from
someplace warm
comfortable life lived
respected for
things undefined
left uncertain failings
behind curtains
trotted out for
all see
dance for me
put on a show
life's certain capabilities
paraded about
no secrets
those respected arouse
suspicion in loved
one's own feelings
pushed to ground
not afraid to smile
live like that.
>>>>
perhaps
he considers depth of reason
inescapable treason
to those in need
transpired fixed
rewind
unoccupied shell wanders
staring at what firings
images encapsulated
among strong feelings
of doubt
belonging to
something hold onto
people humanity
look for a decision
made not thought about
ring true beyond reason
to embrace or
not let near perfect
symbols of imperfection
inarticulate ink
hasn't lived up to it
motivated desire
passion presently absent
a long nights foray
brings an end
considering all that has happened
as time comes later and later
until disrupted
disjunction among synapses
reading friends poetry.
>>>>
he looks to those
most important
defined friend
as family
there for all
anytime
respected above
how to explain beyond
humanistic love
understand this
he repeats
connection
though words traded
less often
time passes
space expands
he repeats
ask and
I will always be there when you need me.
-Rob
"fear is the mind killer"
4.06.2005
late night...
carried about on
seen service
rendered about time
looked upon
backwards thwarted signs
could not should
harried to edge
sharpened and ready
keen on some
idea flitted about
tossed among friends
wondered about realms of unreality
thoughts plundered into
noticed by the other
pierced train
lamps lighted
litter layed about
set placed perfectly
positioned in proud
manners
matter beyond
reach for faith in action.
I thought about going on, but to no avail... decided not to be specific... not to name names... blame or blames...
It's not hard... write nonfiction... I was driving about a couple of hours ago and couldn't wait to get to where I am now... is it possible to write... i hate mystery, mysteriousness... but can't help but fall into that trap...
impossible seemingly...
time to go...
I wondered what audience to aim for... how truthful to be... how candid...
fuck... will that stick with me?
will this stick?
can we really think this crap will move on?
How many of us hope for more?
Come clean...
-Rob
seen service
rendered about time
looked upon
backwards thwarted signs
could not should
harried to edge
sharpened and ready
keen on some
idea flitted about
tossed among friends
wondered about realms of unreality
thoughts plundered into
noticed by the other
pierced train
lamps lighted
litter layed about
set placed perfectly
positioned in proud
manners
matter beyond
reach for faith in action.
I thought about going on, but to no avail... decided not to be specific... not to name names... blame or blames...
It's not hard... write nonfiction... I was driving about a couple of hours ago and couldn't wait to get to where I am now... is it possible to write... i hate mystery, mysteriousness... but can't help but fall into that trap...
impossible seemingly...
time to go...
I wondered what audience to aim for... how truthful to be... how candid...
fuck... will that stick with me?
will this stick?
can we really think this crap will move on?
How many of us hope for more?
Come clean...
-Rob
4.03.2005
waves beach thoughts
on higher and higher ground
movement towards understanding
tides tell a tale
comprehension comes with time
sailing on what thought
to be solid ground
not too long
found out
crazy inconclusive inches away
from falling down he says
cleansing of a mental palate
desired beyond what expectations
rise with watery thoughts
wash away lingering moments
as if
possible understanding
hoping for a reprimand
searching for some signal
beyond respected arrangments
agreed upon standards
behavior
an underlying set
retards further movement
along any path
bridges would have to be burned
as agreed upon
some stunning line
of thought in these last
lines
holding on long enough
to not know as
waves roll up a sandy mind.
on higher and higher ground
movement towards understanding
tides tell a tale
comprehension comes with time
sailing on what thought
to be solid ground
not too long
found out
crazy inconclusive inches away
from falling down he says
cleansing of a mental palate
desired beyond what expectations
rise with watery thoughts
wash away lingering moments
as if
possible understanding
hoping for a reprimand
searching for some signal
beyond respected arrangments
agreed upon standards
behavior
an underlying set
retards further movement
along any path
bridges would have to be burned
as agreed upon
some stunning line
of thought in these last
lines
holding on long enough
to not know as
waves roll up a sandy mind.
3.31.2005
short and sweet
or not...
off to see "these arms are snakes" and "death from above 1979."
massive excitement...
peace...
off to see "these arms are snakes" and "death from above 1979."
massive excitement...
peace...
3.29.2005
blah blah blah...
wished for
passion motivation
energy
move beyond hope
into actionable
items prioritized
prayed for
motivation passion
self creation
hasn't worked in this
haphazard lines
flucuating through states
undefined
themes recur over
and over time
escape from
hinged doors inward
push boundaries
keeping safe in form
used thousands
requested affection
remains unanswered
wanted response
left wanting
still using old punched tired weakened threatened words.
passion motivation
energy
move beyond hope
into actionable
items prioritized
prayed for
motivation passion
self creation
hasn't worked in this
haphazard lines
flucuating through states
undefined
themes recur over
and over time
escape from
hinged doors inward
push boundaries
keeping safe in form
used thousands
requested affection
remains unanswered
wanted response
left wanting
still using old punched tired weakened threatened words.
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