i rallied against this.  i kept changing minds.  i laughed in the face.  i cried out for more, while cringing in the corner, in my mind's eye, it said, keep the lines blurred.  i used consistency as my tool, to waste time.  i favored the sucking soul.

in time the circle will be complete, a new seed.  i shall pass down to the world the best i can give it.  i will mold my gifts in my image and know they will do better, make me proud.  the world will cower and bow before their calamity, calamity of new power, new love, new knowledge to change and crumble the now.

and for once i go to bed with calm vigor.  perhaps a new day will reveal a new way, a direct path to this state.  i shall not yearn, shall not covet, shall not stretch thin.  see another crossing guard, another simple task, yellow fog building.  i cracked this egg, this mess.  i did not.  i considered.

i left for another journey, space, time, sending clear.  i arrived, i returned.

i've presented favors
asked questions
of little known neighbors
i went ahead
back for more
i tripped on lines
left crying before
i crossed signals
broke promises
remembered better days
i soiled my pants
for fear and lacking
i made a mistake
when asked directly
i would not take
look here from quiet
cries out
i've erased memories
shed tears
for forced calamities
i don't take
a step from the abyss
a shake of the head
we're all hairs from darkness
right
and mystery abounds
when forced upon the page
my light shines through
and while the abyss calls
i can only pretend
for we all have
that which keeps us.