i’m rested assured

pretended

believed in nothing

consider my heart arrested

split lines and hairs

another fine factory farmed

emotional response from

fields

i slept in today

i can’t remember what this is for

something left unsaid

and another

wait for me

is not there

with eyes closed

from the pits of some dark abyss

i share the rest of me.

i make complicated
breathing and alive
tight and dense in the chest
awkward moments
best left
go behind and cover
steps brushed over traces left

i pretended and hoped while fearing and leering
monitor paces and pales legs
dropped faces

memory drifts a hazy place
here i stand
creating in words what i chased
another day of aches
a smiling face.

i wrote a different map
killed stars from
a far off place
line breaks in places left space
pretend functions aren't places or holders for long faces

create words on a page
in front of one another
public squares
feel free to act on words
level with me

i hate the thought i left
missing i bet off bothering
me and i and the rest of you
wondering should we
take a step

represent the full price
i left nothing back
pretend our words
gave you hope but
decided the layered cake

never mind the empty gaps
you're never to young to grasp
present a full thought not quite
left in a changing room
story of a doomed life.